Suspended straight jacket escape is one of the most famous Houdini trick. Yesterday I felt that writing did such a trick for me. It helped me tremendously… to get out of a mental space I was stuck. Not just that I also learned a few things interesting about me.
If you remember my post yesterday, it was a weird piece as I was pouring out my confusion into words. I still don’t know if anyone got what I was trying to say. But for me that process of writing untangled what was in my mind like a magic act.
As you might be aware, if you follow me… that I do this daily journaling in two steps. I write it all out first thing in the morning and then I make an audio of that for the Penpositive Outclass Podcast. This allows me to revisit what I wrote a few hours later and that opens up so many opportunities to learn and unlearn.
Yesterday the issue I was trying to address is one of getting stuck like in a maze and losing my own space and in the process being so confused that I am unable to explain what value I create.
I think this has been happening for a few days and yesterday was the peak. I woke up as usual at 5 AM but did not start with my usual routine and again went back to sleep at 6:30 and woke up and 7:00 AM and rushed through the morning. But then found time to pen what was in my mind and it felt a bit better, but not enough.
I went through the meetings at office and all went fine and it was not a memorable underachieved day in any way… it was like any other day. But I missed my daily walk as I had someone come to repair the Air Conditioner. I ate more than I usually do and also got my stomach upset. To add to it I did not complete my 1 hour reading. All in all a few things we slipping out.
And then I did the podcast in the evening and went through the same narration of what I was feeling. It was late by then and I went to sleep. So I was feeling low and confused and then I put that into words once and then spoke about it again after few hours. That in my opinion is what did the trick.
Sometimes we remain so bottled up and often we want to talk, get it out, but we don’t know to whom and how. This is where Writing and Podcasting helped me. In two ways I was able to speak my mind in all its illegibility but it was clear to me…. or it got clear after I wrote and spoke. Today I woke up as usual and back to life with less entanglements.
But as I said yesterday, September will be a year of self reflection for me on many things I do. I think that is the second Houdini act for me. Space and Maze is slowly falling in place.
I learned that my diet last five days have been so erratic… And I am wondering that such a small shift also make things bad… A lot more to learn and plan.
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