Today is Valentine’s day and I am travelling to India. There is a peer pressure when you are not travelling with your partner on Valentine’s day. There is an element of aloneness that is felt online and offline.

How can he/she ? Was that intentional? What is happening between you two? Is he/she that insensitive.. or is it inconsideration..? Why why why…

On top of that I have this acute anxiety before any trip… I have to get to the airport 3 hours before and I start my preparation hours before that. That does not mean I am always prepared, I still fall short and feel I have forgotten things I don’t remember or will ever need. Well that is what you call anxiety.

My flight is at 2:40PM and you can imagine an anxiety stricken mind’s preoccupation on the morning of valentine’s day 😁

I reach airport at 11:15AM and find that the flight is over booked (inspite of my partner reminding me hundred times that I have to check in online early)… Anxiety has nothing to do with being prepared. It is more of a deterrent.

They ask me if I am ok to travel the next day. I panic and say NO when I can actually do that. Finally they get me a direct flight to Bangalore at 8PM without a stopover. Great. But now what… I have 4-5 hours left before I can board.

I call my partner and she says “serves you well… now what” I say why don’t you drive to the airport and we can have a small valentine’s lunch. 😁

She agrees as always (because she is considerate and I am just an anxious baby). We go to the mall nearby and a more mature person inside me says “this is your chance to make up you idiot for the inconsiderate fool you have been”.

We go to a store and I surprise her Nd buy her something (she is worth more, but you cannot repay inconsideration that easily… But it is a start… Every reformation starts with a delicate formation of public affection).

She has margarita and I have a few old fashion (yep, apt for me… Old fashion).

The restaurant was preparing for Valentine’s evening and we got to take a picture. Sometimes we don’t recognize the knock at the door but the window wide opens into your room and we cannot ignore.

Happy Valentine’s to you all 🥰