Shatters Inside Me

Sometimes I go back and read
things that I have written
and tell myself
“shit, how can I write like this?
like I have never done anything wrong.
How awful…..”

The fact is every day I
look in the mirror
and something shatters
inside me.

Being moral, being good,
being righteous
is not easy
it is very tough.

I falter every day,
some days during
every decision making

Decisions are like
battles for me
some I win,
some I give into.

May be one day
I will look in the mirror and
I will not hear
that shattering sound